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Now or never... (QUICK UPDATE)

I wasn't lying when I said that I wanted to get back into blogging. However, life took multiple turns and I've been too busy to sit down at my computer and produce a decent blog post. It can't hurt to fill in anyone that still reads my blogs, but might not closely follow me on social media. After TWO years of being single and not being into the idea of dating anyone, I'm actually in a relationship. I know at the beginning of a relationship it's expected to be in the state that you feel like you've never been happier. The difference is, I've known my boyfriend for 11 years. When we were young, we'd always act like a couple. We never had a "title" back then no matter how many times we reconnected. Seven months ago, he finally moved back home. I was so excited to have him back in my life. Then I realized that I wasn't okay with just being his friend. After about 5 months of blowing him off and him giving up trying to hang out, I finally ex...
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Thoughts from an ex-blogger..

My desire to get back to writing has been so strong lately. I can't seem to figure out if I want to blog again. At the same time, I REALLY want to blog again. I've found comfort in my privacy. This comfort has made me uncomfortable with openly sharing details of my life. However, blogging always was there to provide me with an outlet to express my thoughts, feelings and emotions. The people I was able to connect with through blogging was always an incredible bonus. I didn't want to blog when I realized that people that I don't want to be part of my life were reading my blog posts. During this time I also stopped being active on Twitter and Instagram. I felt that it was unfair to me that specific people were able to catch up on my life via social media. There are many issue I face with returning to my blog. I need to allow myself to step outside of my comfort zone of keeping my life private. I need to be okay with the fact that some people, that shouldn't be ...

"I Dated A Manipulator"

After I read this article, "I Dated a Manipulator & It Nearly Ruined Me."   I felt like the article was written for me. I absolutely hate looking back on my last serious relationship because I hate wishing I would of left 2 months into the whole thing. The truth is, I can't change anything. I also wouldn't change anything because I'm beyond proud of myself and where my life is going. That article makes me cringe because it's more true than I'd ever like to admit. The 10 statements that the article mentions are; "I never knew where I stood or what to expect, He was incredibly well spoken, I put in all the effort, My life revolved around him, My friends were annoyed, He was unwilling to compromise, I lived in fear, He was completely in charge, There was no such thing as "talking things through"and he didn't change until I left." I truly has no idea where I stood or what to expect, almost always. He'd beg me to cook or bake...

Piece by piece, he restored my faith that a man can be kind and a father could stay.

I had planned on posting about the loss of my Savannah before I posted an update about all of my adventures. However, before I post about Savannah.. I need to make this post. It's not a planned post.. it just needs to be address right now. My emotions are all over the place and I can almost guarantee that this post will also be all over the place. I'm faced with a situation that I never thought I'd ever have to deal with. I don't want to deal with it. I'm days away from being able to share something that I'd love to share via social media, but I don't think I'm going to be able to. I think I need to set all of my social media accounts to private and I'm considering making this blog private during this time. I really don't want to, but I am really uncomfortable with what I'm dealing with right now. I'd love to elaborate on it, but at this time I know I can't. I will say that I am forever grateful that I was fortunate enough to ...

I did it!

The photos were super blurry, but I can not believe I actually graduated on Saturday. This was something that a year ago I never thought was possible. I actually gave up on the thought of graduating, and accepted that it'd be a few year until I was able to walk the stage.  It wasn't until I walked into the arena and stood with all the other graduates, in my 5 sizes too big gown, that I felt overwhelmed with emotions. I felt happy and proud that I no longer will allow myself to settle or put other's plans before my own.  I'm beyond excited to continue at my internship. I'm so lucky to be at a place that I love going to, especially since there are many people that have had horrible experiences with their internships at other agencies. I've never been more motivated to continue my education and chase after my dreams. I'm in such an amazing place in my life and I couldn't be more grateful for the amazing support system I have cheering me o...

Oops...

I didn't completely forget about posting.. I had at least 5 drafts that were almost done. I just let life get in the way a little. Life has been great. I unexpectedly was given the opportunity to graduate this summer. It was a major surprise.  For over a year, I've known that I needed to complete two internships in order to complete my associate's degree. I felt like there was no way I'd have time for two internships anytime soon. Once I realized that I already have an associate's degree in Applied Science (not my field), I felt that there was no point to wait around, taking random classes while waiting for two internship before moving onto my bachelor's degree. I decided I wanted to change my degree level to a bachelor's degree. When I went to talk to an academic advisor, she contacted the director of my program. The director of my program was more than willing to help me out so that I could get one of my internships. Last week, I had an interview and t...

Sleepy Momma

I did plan on posting this previous week and the week before.. however, I've been so incredibly exhausted and busy. I guess that's a great way of putting, welcome to mom life! To be completely honest, I'm so happy with where I'm at in life right now. Yes, there are things that are difficult to deal with and I know some of those things will always be hard. For a while I wished that I could go back well over a year ago and made a different decision. I don't wish that now because I've grown so much and gained things I could never give up. My strength, my motivation and my happiness is at an all time high. It feels amazing. In other news...  I finally got a kitten! She's such a sassy girl, but she can be the most loving thing at times! When she wakes up and I'm next to her or when I pick her up, she grabs my cheeks and kisses me.  The bottom left photo is a result of a playful kitty that needs her nails trimmed. If you foll...