* Pretty Little Endeavors

I wasn't lying when I said that I wanted to get back into blogging. However, life took multiple turns and I've been too busy to sit down at my computer and produce a decent blog post. It can't hurt to fill in anyone that still reads my blogs, but might not closely follow me on social media. After TWO years of being single and not being into the idea of dating anyone, I'm actually in a relationship. I know at the beginning of a relationship it's expected to be in the state that you feel like you've never been happier. The difference is, I've known my boyfriend for 11 years. When we were young, we'd always act like a couple. We never had a "title" back then no matter how many times we reconnected. Seven months ago, he finally moved back home. I was so excited to have him back in my life. Then I realized that I wasn't okay with just being his friend. After about 5 months of blowing him off and him giving up trying to hang out, I finally ex...

My desire to get back to writing has been so strong lately. I can't seem to figure out if I want to blog again. At the same time, I REALLY want to blog again. I've found comfort in my privacy. This comfort has made me uncomfortable with openly sharing details of my life. However, blogging always was there to provide me with an outlet to express my thoughts, feelings and emotions. The people I was able to connect with through blogging was always an incredible bonus. I didn't want to blog when I realized that people that I don't want to be part of my life were reading my blog posts. During this time I also stopped being active on Twitter and Instagram. I felt that it was unfair to me that specific people were able to catch up on my life via social media. There are many issue I face with returning to my blog. I need to allow myself to step outside of my comfort zone of keeping my life private. I need to be okay with the fact that some people, that shouldn't be ...

After I read this article, "I Dated a Manipulator & It Nearly Ruined Me."   I felt like the article was written for me. I absolutely hate looking back on my last serious relationship because I hate wishing I would of left 2 months into the whole thing. The truth is, I can't change anything. I also wouldn't change anything because I'm beyond proud of myself and where my life is going. That article makes me cringe because it's more true than I'd ever like to admit. The 10 statements that the article mentions are; "I never knew where I stood or what to expect, He was incredibly well spoken, I put in all the effort, My life revolved around him, My friends were annoyed, He was unwilling to compromise, I lived in fear, He was completely in charge, There was no such thing as "talking things through"and he didn't change until I left." I truly has no idea where I stood or what to expect, almost always. He'd beg me to cook or bake...

I had planned on posting about the loss of my Savannah before I posted an update about all of my adventures. However, before I post about Savannah.. I need to make this post. It's not a planned post.. it just needs to be address right now. My emotions are all over the place and I can almost guarantee that this post will also be all over the place. I'm faced with a situation that I never thought I'd ever have to deal with. I don't want to deal with it. I'm days away from being able to share something that I'd love to share via social media, but I don't think I'm going to be able to. I think I need to set all of my social media accounts to private and I'm considering making this blog private during this time. I really don't want to, but I am really uncomfortable with what I'm dealing with right now. I'd love to elaborate on it, but at this time I know I can't. I will say that I am forever grateful that I was fortunate enough to ...

The photos were super blurry, but I can not believe I actually graduated on Saturday. This was something that a year ago I never thought was possible. I actually gave up on the thought of graduating, and accepted that it'd be a few year until I was able to walk the stage.  It wasn't until I walked into the arena and stood with all the other graduates, in my 5 sizes too big gown, that I felt overwhelmed with emotions. I felt happy and proud that I no longer will allow myself to settle or put other's plans before my own.  I'm beyond excited to continue at my internship. I'm so lucky to be at a place that I love going to, especially since there are many people that have had horrible experiences with their internships at other agencies. I've never been more motivated to continue my education and chase after my dreams. I'm in such an amazing place in my life and I couldn't be more grateful for the amazing support system I have cheering me o...

I didn't completely forget about posting.. I had at least 5 drafts that were almost done. I just let life get in the way a little. Life has been great. I unexpectedly was given the opportunity to graduate this summer. It was a major surprise.  For over a year, I've known that I needed to complete two internships in order to complete my associate's degree. I felt like there was no way I'd have time for two internships anytime soon. Once I realized that I already have an associate's degree in Applied Science (not my field), I felt that there was no point to wait around, taking random classes while waiting for two internship before moving onto my bachelor's degree. I decided I wanted to change my degree level to a bachelor's degree. When I went to talk to an academic advisor, she contacted the director of my program. The director of my program was more than willing to help me out so that I could get one of my internships. Last week, I had an interview and t...

I did plan on posting this previous week and the week before.. however, I've been so incredibly exhausted and busy. I guess that's a great way of putting, welcome to mom life! To be completely honest, I'm so happy with where I'm at in life right now. Yes, there are things that are difficult to deal with and I know some of those things will always be hard. For a while I wished that I could go back well over a year ago and made a different decision. I don't wish that now because I've grown so much and gained things I could never give up. My strength, my motivation and my happiness is at an all time high. It feels amazing. In other news...  I finally got a kitten! She's such a sassy girl, but she can be the most loving thing at times! When she wakes up and I'm next to her or when I pick her up, she grabs my cheeks and kisses me.  The bottom left photo is a result of a playful kitty that needs her nails trimmed. If you foll...

Anytime I've been single in the past, I enjoyed going on dates and getting to know someone. I mentioned recently that I went on a date after people kept suggesting that I should. I'm not looking to jump into a relationship or anything like that, but I figured one date is harmless. Wrong.  I had someone not understanding why I couldn't hang out any time I was free. Someone that wanted me to call multiple times a day. Someone telling me that it was wrong that I still was on good terms with my ex (my ex I dated for 3 years, not the recent one). I was questioned almost daily about why I still had pictures with that same ex. It turned into me having to put my phone on silent all day and night long while receiving 5-20 missed calls in a day and on average 3 voicemails. Then I realized he was trying to talk to my ex's girlfriend. It was more than weird. So after not understanding why I didn't want to talk anymore, he went on about how he has a million girls that wa...

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas! I absolutely did! Other than being sick. Yes.. we had to wear ugly Christmas sweaters at work. This was taken after work. Excuse my hot mess look.  I was nervous about Christmas this year. It was the first Christmas in almost for ever that I didn't have a significant other. That makes me sound like a serial dater, just keep in mind that many of those years were spent with the same person. I really enjoyed having a polish Christmas Eve and spending Christmas at the casino. I was completely spoiled this year and received so many gifts that I was more than grateful for. Lately, everyone keeps giving me crap that I haven't gone on dates. I'm not really into that whole dating thing right now. I feel like I've really enjoyed doing things on my own time and not having to answer to someone. So I decided to go on a date. It was actually really nice. He picked me up, we headed out his way. He took me to his yatc...

I have some awesome followers that have reached out to me lately. It shocked me that people that started reading years ago stuck through me going MIA multiple times. Not only did some of these people stick around, they shared so much love and support regarding my recent posts. Some of the e-mails or messages I've received have been hard to respond to, but also gave me a lot to think about. One e-mail asked all the questions everyone combined has asked. I asked if I could use the e-mail for a blog post. I felt like it would be a good way to clear the air about what I'm comfortable able sharing. So this is part of the e-mail. I wish that I had responded in a way that would allow me to just screenshot it. However, I appreciate people being open with me and in return I'll be open in order to help someone in a situation they're in. I'm responding publicly, because maybe this will clear a few things up.. Were there signs that I ignored? Yes and no. That's har...

I miss doing confession posts. Mostly because it's basically venting about random things. So here we go.  I confess.... --I have one week left of classes and I'm stressing myself out about getting a 4.0 this quarter.. even though I know I'll probably get it. --I am obsessed with my essential oil diffusers. I've gone through far too many bottles of my favorite essential oils, but it's completely worth it. --Although I love my essential oils and binaural beats.. I am not a crazy holistic believer.  --It might be finals week and I strained my calf muscle.. However, in the past 7 days I haven't done too bad on my steps. --I waited on a group of people Thursday night and the one man told me he is able to sense specific health problems people have. He expressed his concern that something is wrong with my gallbladder. After revisiting Google Medical School, just to be safe, I came to the conclusion that he was completely wrong. --I have experienced tw...

I've had such wonderful feedback from my last post. After a few people e-mailed me, I realized I can't allow the negative people from my past to keep taking from me. I'm almost positive that I won't be deleting my blog. If anything else comes up, or if I continue to see traffic coming from the cities that those people live in.. I will make this blog private. Simple as that. I forced myself to step out of my current comfort zone this weekend. I'm so grateful that I did! I went to the Lions game and had some adventures downtown.  Lions game and Jimmy Howard. Total win.  I got to see a sneak peak of the auto show, got to go into the venue I saw Corey Taylor at when it was empty and a band was doing a sound check and so many other random things. It was a lot of fun. I absolutely needed a day like that.  I'm really looking forward to blogging more and I'm really praying that I won't have to make this private. I'll be sure to keep you upda...

I made the decision that I wanted to come back to blogging. However, I honestly think that I'm going to have to leave this blog and start a new one. Which is very sad, but at this point I'm so sick of all the drama and games.  After my last post I received a very immature and disturbing Facebook message from a family member of my ex. Asking why I didn't disclose other information about things I did. The allegations that were listed in this Facebook message makes me completely understand why I'm getting prank calls almost daily and why friends and family members of my ex keep contacting me.  Sometimes when people are wrong, they place blame on anyone they can. And I guess when that same person lies a lot, they'll never admit to false statements. Yes, I have a lot of proof, including voice recordings, that would make these people think twice about what they were told. However, I'm not looking to play dirty. I'm actually not looking to play at all. T...

I have felt unsure of how I would be able to get back into blogging after what I've recently went through in life. I'm still trying to figure out life after everything. It's almost pathetic that I wish I was the bad person in the whole thing. That would be so simple. I'd feel horrible for the choices I made and eventually I'd be over it an on to the next.  It's frustrating that even after explaining that my mind starts thinking about how all the lies that were made and all the bullying he encouraged will never make him feel bad at all. I'm more than sick of allowing people to try and break me down for not realizing what he was doing. This is my time to be open. This is my time to speak the truth. I don't care who reads this. I'm done letting someone make me a fool when I gave absolutely everything. For the past month or two I absolutely hated this quote. I made my mistakes, I should of behaved better.. However I changed a lot. I proved tha...

Now that it is officially summer, I'm really praying that I'll have time this summer to get to the beach! I swear I have at least 10 bathing suits that I haven't even worn yet. I also am trying really hard to get fit so hopefully I can wear one of the many crop tops that I have. This also means that I'm in need of some new belly button rings! I've been searching for a few that would be perfect for summer. I ended up finding a few from Freshtrends that were very affordable and will be perfect! I love the seashell one! And obviously love the anchor ones because they'll match my new tattoo. (This picture was taken while it was still healing) I'm looking forward to this summer! I'm also looking forward to having a chance to show off my new belly button rings and get a tan!  Do any of you have a favorite summer accessory?

It's been a while since I've posted. I understand that the amount of readers I have has gone down. However, when I first started blogging it was for me. I'm grateful for the people I've met through this blog and always will be. It's something I never expected. So if you're still reading this.. here's a little update on where I'm at in my life.. I feel the the luckiest girl in the entire world every single day. Finding the man of my dreams and being able to plan a future together has been nothing short of absolutely amazing. I'm beyond excited for everything we have planned. Currently, we're spending our weeks between his house and my parents house. We stay at my parents house if it's a night before I work since it's closer. I've never lived on my own.. I have a great relationship with my parents. However, I've really enjoyed spending half of the week at his house and taking on "housewife" duties.  He wo...

I realize I never got back into blogging. Life has been insanely busy, yet absolutely wonderful! Can't wait to catch you all up, very soon. However, there is something I want to post about.. my Fitbit addiction. I got a Fitbit for Christmas, I was excited to get back into working out. Then I quickly realized that you can add friends on Fitbit and compete with them. Daily, weekly and weekend challenges. All of a sudden, I was addicted to being competitive with my steps. Then my amazing boyfriend decided to get me a treadmill so we could workout together at home, or so I could run while he was working on the new house or if he was at work or school. So the first night on my treadmill I was so excited about all of my steps. Then.. I started getting him involved in cheering me on so I could beat everyone I was competing with. He even would walk or run with me. Even if it meant we were going to run in place while watching Marriage Bootcamp.. Yes, we love the show....

I wanted to make blogging a resolution, until I realized that I don't make resolutions. However, I can make more of an effort to get back into writing. So consider this my first step in the right direction.. I'm beyond excited for 2015. It's already off to an amazing start. I'm in a relationship and I'm extremely happy. He treats me like a princess and loves to surprise me with cute and lovely things just to remind me how much he cares. The holidays were wonderful. We spent Christmas Eve with my parents then woke up Christmas morning and opened gifts, then spent Christmas with his family.  Hanging our first ornaments we got for each other. Laughing too much to be able to pose for pictures. New Years Eve we decided to just have a relaxing and stay in. We drank too many beers and after our kiss at midnight, we cheers our favorite shot; fireball.. New Years day we didn't make an effort to get up or be productive until we were sick of watc...