You're my bestfriend

Hello beautiful readers!

I'm trying to get myself healthy! I'm sick and it's making me miserable.

I've been trying so hard to be super healthy lately!

I make myself smoothies all the time. I only use fruit, fat free greek yogurt and SOMETIMES fat-free frozen yogurt. They taste really great and they're so filling!

I have also been absolutely addicted to guacamole!

I make my own. Practically daily. Usually that will be my lunch or if my cravings are bad enough I'll allow it as a bed time snack.

Tomorrow my mom is making me a huge batch of Extreme Diet Soup!

It's amazing, even if you are not following the diet (which I'm not).

It's very, very high in fiber and very healthy! It taste amazing and honestly I could eat it all day every day and still want more. I'll ask her for the recipe and I'll post it for you guys!

After I write this I'm actually going to do a lot of research on a bunch of really healthy foods. I plan on making a stop at Trader Joe's and some health store my mom told me about. I think the most annoying part of losing a lot of weight is that people assume I just don't eat. I eat, a lot! I probably eat more than ever. My body changed, and I'm so obsessed with taking care of my body now. Believe me, I would much rather be super tiny and know how to take care of my body and all the right things to eat than to starve myself and struggle with weight and my body image. I love food way too much. I'm getting hungry just thinking about not eating. I'm pathetic, haha.

Guess what today is?

January 18th..

I have officially been with my beautiful love for 1 year and a half.

It's a mystery how I managed to keep someone around for this long. We have both had relationships in the past that lasted over a year, but not a year and a half. I'm such a brat sometimes. I'm very spoiled and Lucas has only added to that. I find it very often that he's calling me out of a severe "diva moment" as he calls it. In my defense, he knew how I was from day one. It's almost crazy how much we went through even before we were allowed to actually go public with our relationship. Sounds kind of crazy doesn't it?  When I lost everything I had, Lucas and my family were the only people there for me no matter what time of night. 

We've had people try so hard to ruin us... even to this day his ex girlfriend from like 4 years ago pretends that she hangs out with him, and it's always when we were together too.. so it entertaining. To be an adult and have an imagery friend of your ex-boyfriend and openly talk about it.. ah, yikes!.. Okay, so maybe it's obvious why we are so thankful for each other.. we've settled for way less than anyone should ever settle for in the past. 

We've been there for each other through it all. I'm never leaving, so hopefully he never changes his mind because he's stuck! But, honestly.. he's my best friend. I can't believe how far we've come. No one could ever compare, and no one could ever make me so happy. he's completely changed my life. 

I'm a better person because of him.

I'm using this an excuse to be all lovey and girly.

Truth is, I can ramble about Lucas for days.

AH, sorry! I'm going to just leave him messages for when he gets off work.

OH MY GOSH...

THIS WAS FROM A YEAR AGO!!!

Look at our chubby faces! I can't believe how much we've changed.. I have long blonde hair.. Lucas doesn't have hair and we both lost a lot of weight.. Well.. Lucas is gaining his back, yay! But still..

Okay, I'm getting really tired. I've got to refill my humidifier and hopefully still be up when Luke gets home!

Goodnight!!