* Pretty Little Endeavors

I've explained on here that I'm just dealing with things that are really hard for me right now. I didn't want to make two posts in a row about being upset. But, I watched this video by Jenna Marbles and I cried because it was sad but at the same time so positive. If you follow me on twitter you probably think I'm a hot mess. I've received so many tweets, direct messages, e-mails and comments from people who have been concerned if I'm okay. I've said to almost everyone, "I'm always okay".. because, honestly I know what I've gone through in life so far and I've always made it through. I'm very strong and I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I'm very good at putting a smile on and not letting people see me cry or get upset. Yes, I've used twitter to express myself.. but, most people I'm around in person don't even realize anything is wrong. I was talking to one of the regulars at work and mentioned that ...

Source: thisisnotmyfairytaleendingg.tumblr.com via Amanda on Pinterest I'm amazed at all of my new followers. If you're one of them or if you've been following along for some time, I want to apologize for my lack of blogging. I have been so happy to hear from many new readers that they enjoy my honesty. Readers have told me that they enjoy reading because I keep things real. I know that readers like that understand that sometimes life just gets in the way of blogging. It's not that I've been super busy. I just have been dealing with some things and I truly don't feel like myself. There are times that I want to blog but, I can't seem to find the right words. I can't seem to blog about something without seeming miserable. I'm not miserable. I'm not depressed. I just feel lost. I feel a lot of emotions lately. I'm angry, I'm sad.. but, I'm okay. I can promise that. I don't know what any of you will assume is going on base...

I'm so glad it's Monday and I'm so glad St. Patrick's Day is OVER!!! I'm going out for drinks tonight and I deserve every single sip I'll take. Friday. Relaxed with Luke. I honestly can't remember what we did. Saturday. Woke up around 6:30/7am for my final. The roads were so icy. Usually on Saturday theres no morning traffic or cops and I can make it to school in 15/20 minutes. But, it took me almost 40 minutes. My final sucked. I knew I did awful on it because for some reason I couldn't remember anything that morning. I ended up getting a 95% in the class. Around 1pm Lucas calls me to tell me he had broken out in some kind of rash. He's been on amoxicillin for strep throat so I started researching. Then I was so consumed in researching that I wasted my entire afternoon. He seems to be fine. It seems like it's just a reaction to the antibiotic. The rest of the night we just relaxed. Ate too much food and then we both had to...

Dear March, You have been insane for me. In the last 14 days I have worked 65 hours on top of 22 hours of school AND finals. I'm ready for a break. Dear Blog, I had planned on posting a few times this week. Some of the posts were even so close to being finished and now I'm here on Friday, looking back wondering why I didn't just post them. With 2 weeks off of classes, you'll be seeing much more of me.. and much better posts. Dear Sleep, I was beginning to think I didn't know you anymore. Getting an hour or two of you ever night was really starting to wear me down. So glad I was able to get 15 hours of you last night. Dear Reggie Bush, I still don't believe you are now a Detroit Lion. I'm way too excited for you to get your number so I can spend a ridiculous amount on your jersey. Dear Bandwagon fan girls, I feel like I'm one of you over Reggie Bush. When I see a girl that is a "huge Red Wings fan" and her favori...

I wish I was here to update you all with the awesome weekend I had. But, nothing "fun" happened.  Lucas found out he has strep throat on Friday and I spent that entire day being paranoid and avoided him. I'm still paranoid about it. He started noticing his throat being irritated last Sunday.. after spending our three days off together.  Friday night I spent relaxing and watched a few movies. I couldn't sleep at all. Which sucked since I had class in the morning. Saturday morning I went to class and then came home, got some work done.  I was excited that my Detroit Dog Rescue shirt came in the mail! Then I decided I was going to shower and take a nap. Except, I some how managed to fall asleep before I took a shower. I'm not big on naps. I always wake up really crabby. I pulled it together, showered and attempted to get ready. Saturday night was spent eating and grocery shopping with Lucas and then we watched JT on SNL with his mom.  I d...

I started talking about this in my Friday's Letters but, then I realized I had a lot to say about it. Sometimes I'm amazed at the way people see certain disorders. I'm currently taking an abnormal psychology class and I absolutely love it.  I love learning about different disorders people have and how they function with those disorders. Lately, I've noticed a lot of negatively directed towards ADD/ADHD. I mentioned yesterday that someone in one of our discussions was talking about it. They mentioned all of these lifelong issues someone they know has simply because they had either ADD or ADHD and took medication. I woke up Friday morning and read a Facebook status about how people who take medication for these disorders are trapped in their own mind and can not express their own creativity. Dr. OZ recently had a show all about the dangers of Adderall. The drug given to people with ADD. I am personally someone with ADD.  I've mentioned thi...

Dear Friday, You feel like Saturday.. which doesn't make sense because I didn't have school this morning.. but, still I'm convinced it's Saturday. Dear LBZ, I really hope that you kept your germs to yourself. I don't have time to deal with strep throat. I'll be spending the day cleaning up your germs and studying and I hope you get more than enough sleep! I love you!.. But, I can't promise I won't be a little upset if I get strep throat. Dear Ombre Hair, I dislike you even more now that everyone keeps complimenting me on my "ombre hair"... it's not ombre. Which is totally funny. Dear Finals, Play nice.  Dear Karma, I enjoy thinking that one day you'll do your job.. however I wish you could hurry up. Dear Life, Sometimes I think push me to my limits just to teach me some kind of lesson or make me reason something I'm not clearly seeing. It might actually be working. Dear Coffee, Get it to...

Happy hump day! My week has been a little on the extreme stress side. Last night was my only night that I've had time to just relax. But waking up at 7am to start my 20 hour school and work day really proved that last night wasn't enough relax time. I haven't pinned much this week. But, here are some of the things I have pinned! Source: lauralizabeth.tumblr.com via Amanda on Pinterest Source: recipenewz.com via Amanda on Pinterest Source: recipenewz.com via Amanda on Pinterest Source: away-1862.polyvore.com via Amanda on Pinterest Source: Uploaded by user via Amanda on Pinterest Source: witanddelight.tumblr.com via Amanda on Pinterest Source: michaelkors.com via Amanda on Pinterest Source: Uploaded by user via Amanda on Pinterest

Monday already?!   I enjoyed my weekend. I'm exhausted from it. Friday Lucas and I went out to eat, had a few drinks, went grocery shopping and relaxed. Saturday morning I had class, went shopping then went to my sister's to celebrate my birthday. I ended up staying the night at my sister's since Lucas had to get home to do laundry and get everything ready for work and I didn't feel like leaving. He's such an awesome boyfriend because he went to the store for me a few times and even bought and delievered us Taco Bell later. Yes, I was unable to spell quesadillas.  It was a good, as well as interesting, night. Sunday I woke up exhausted.  I went home and watched the Wings game and napped until I had to get ready for work. This week is going to be stressful. I'm already ready for the weekend... Hope you all had a fab weekend!

I'm running behind but, I had to vent about this quickly. After class today I went to the mall because I have a severe shopping addiction. I found a few pairs of jeans and decided to try them on. I walk to the dressing room behind a mother and her young daughter. The daughter is probably around the age of 13-15 and no bigger than a size 3, if that. The mom was probably a 00, super skinny.  I'm trying on my jeans and I can hear the mom practically yelling at her daughter because whatever size jeans her daughter was trying on weren't fitting her.  If you're a girl I'm sure you know that sometimes certain brands are made different and the size is just annoying number. For example, today I found a size 0 that fit perfect and a size 1 in a different brand that fit just as perfect. Did that size 1 run small? Possibly. Or did the size 0 run big? Also very possible. Did I gain or lose weight in between trying on each pair? No. I can hear the girl telling ...

My Birthday was absolutely fabulous. I'm surprised at how many people didn't realize I wasn't 21 or over. And feel free to judge me while reading this post. It was my 21st birthday. Friday night (technically Saturday) at midnight.. I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for a beer.    Stuck with a typical IPA. Bells Two Hearted.  Then, I went and bought some beer. And I drank a few.. Saturday morning I woke up at 7am because I had class at 9. Yes, on my 21st birthday.  I wasn't feeling the greatest so I decided to change, brush my teeth and not look in a mirror. My first legal hangover and I did not care. School wasn't bad because that class is awesome. After school I stopped at the party store to buy a fifth of Three Olives Cake  since Lucas wouldn't let me pay for the case of beer I bought last night. Went home, got ready and waited for the car to pick up Lucas, my parents and I. I was starving when we got to Greektown so we decided to eat fir...