I just want to say thank you to all of you who commented and reached out to me after my last post. It was a hard post to write. It wasn't something I felt comfortable mentioning for months and months. I'm glad I finally decided to suck it up and share.
I want all of you to know that I'm okay. This was something I've been dealing with for a while. I've had some really bad days, but I'm having much better days.
Sunday night, I went on a date. It was a really great night. However, my ex found out and wasn't happy. After months of him not being willing to talk about our issues and figure everything out, he had a lot to say. I was more annoyed than anything. I walked away from the relationship because I couldn't allow myself to keep trying so hard and being mistreated and to constantly have everything turned around so I looked like the bad person. I didn't just wake up one day and just out of the blue walked away. It was at least 6 months that I said I'd leave if things didn't change.
I'm very strong, but I allowed myself to be weak. I allowed myself to hurt for so long that I finally broke down and found myself in situations where I didn't even know who I was. I have spent the past few months finding out who I really am. I can admit my wrongs, but I grateful to take every single moment as a lesson learned.
I'm being as honest as I can in this post and the last post I wrote. There are many things that I'm not going to get into details about because I'm not writing these posts to bash anyone. I don't need to defend myself. I know that I'm not any of the things being said to me or about me.
I'm moving forward. I'm doing things that make me happy. I have a lot of wonderful things going on in my life that I can't wait to catch you all up on.
Again, thank you all so much for all the love and support you have shown me. I wish I could explain just how much it means to me.
One of my ex boyfriends acted surprised when I broke up with him, but like you, I had told him repeatedly that there were issues and if he didn't shape up, things would be done. I don't think he actually believed I had the balls to do it, which was even more of a reason to do it. You have to look out for yourself and your happiness. You deserve to be around people who make you happy and don't bring you down!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you have a really healthy perspective on the situation. You deserve happiness so stay strong :)
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