We never know when the bus is coming.

This past quarter I had a theories of counseling class. One night, my professor told us to write down our deepest secret and fold it up. She picked random people and asked if she could look at their secret and if she could read it out loud. I was okay with her seeing, I wasn't okay with her reading it. She never read any of them, it was a trust exercise.

Since that day, I have admitted that secret to 4 different people. The secret has to do with the way I feel about a certain situation. The way I've always felt about it. I don't want to feel this way, but I'm apparently not in control of that. It doesn't help that those 4 people have encouraged me to give it a shot and do what makes me happy. 

I've regretted losing things in the past because I pretended not to care. I don't want to have regrets. I want to be able to just go for things and if it doesn't go as planned, at least I tried. I want to give my all instead of holding back because I fear a negative outcome.

I actually was very hesitant to post this, but then I read my horoscope for today..

I can't think of a better day to start living life without fear of a let down. I need to just start going after the things I want and not stop myself. Obviously it's easier said than done, but effort is the best way to start. 

After all, we never know when the bus is coming.