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If you don't let it out, you're going to let it eat you away.

As a "lifestyle blogger" I should be sharing important things going on in my life. I've been great about sharing struggles. Sometimes I don't go into details. It's hard because sometimes I just need someone there for me and if I have a hard time talking about it on my blog, I have a hard time talking about it in real life. I can be a very open person and then at times I can completely shut out everyone.



I have been so lucky to have a handful of people I've met through blogging that have contacted me and actually cared about things I've been going through. At times I have a hard time admitting things to these people, but when I do I feel amazing about myself. I've decided that I will be opening up a little on my blog in the very near future about some of these things. I need to take some time to make sure I can explain it in the most mature way possible. I'd love to call people out, explain things that would make everyone understand my emotions.. however, I don't know how I really want to approach that post. Believe me, it's coming. 

I haven't been blogging much about things because there are a lot of things that I haven't been able to mention. There are things that would change the kind of blogger I am. I've been nervous about exposing things that aren't in the open. I've been nervous about what people will say.

If I knew that people in my "real" life didn't read my blog, everything would out in the open. In the next week or two I will share with you all everything you didn't know. I'm sucking it up and being the blogger that I wanted to be when I started this blog. I want to be able to share things. No more being too scared to open up. 

At this time, I think that the most important thing that I can say is that I'm happy. I believe that I have found something that makes me hopeful and motivated. I have found myself appreciating the small things. I have found myself dying to share this thing with everyone, but knowing at the same time that I can't. Not right now at least. That will change, very soon. 



Thank you all so much for sticking around. I don't know what you all have assumed. I don't know what you think of this post. I hope to clear it all up very soon!

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